Tiny dancer breaking through (nobrainer) wrote,
Tiny dancer breaking through

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Hell week was last week. Oh it was the worst hell week ever. We were at school till 11 everydayyy. But the good thing was I got out of class almost every day last week. Gotta love that.

Wednesday was the teaser and I became the hair/makeup person.
Thursday was opening night and it went amazing. I can't believe that we pulled it off, but we did!
Friday our lead got sick so Jen went on and did a great job. Mpan diner afterwards, entertaining as always.
Saturday I went to meet my cousin in Howell for lunch and then went to Halley's for superlatives then the show. During the show James came down to see me for a half hour and we hooked up in his car, duh. Cast party at Jen's afterwards. Porn movies, don't mind if we do! Hahahaha. Got home at 1 and was exhausteddd.
Sunday we all thought call was 11, but it apparently was 12:30 and Ms. M. didn't tell us that so the whole cast/crew sat in the parking lot for an hour and a half. The show was amazing and my superlative was hilariouss! "Most likely to be famous for doing absolutley nothing, like Paris Hilton." Loves it<3 Cast party at Jenna's afterwards. I <3 Red Rover. How do I know if I have a concussion? Hahahahahaha.

So Saturday night James and I were talking through texts and he texted me and asked if we were ever gonna do more than hook up and I told him I don't do more than hookup and after a long talk he said he was fine with that and that he had no problems. However, he kept bringing it up and then bearly talked to me in school on Monday so Tuesday I stormed up to him in the lunchroom and told him how much of a jerk he was being. He still hasn't given me an answer for prom and 9 out of 10 times I'm crying over him instead of smiling over him which isn't worth it. I'm asking a back up to prom and I told him that I couldn't wait any longer and he said he understood. I feel like he was jumping for joy inside when I told him this. I hate this. I hate not knowing what's going on with him and I, obviously nothing or he wouldn't be treating me like this, but still, don't lead me on then asshole. 

I went to my cousins in Howell yesterday and then worked. I'm at my cousin's right now babysitting and James was supposed to come over, but he came home late last night and got grounded. I don't know if I believe that or not, but what else am I supposed to do? I have no other choice. I hate this. I'm not talking to him till Friday. I'm so tempted to text him right now, but I won't. I sat here crying to my 15 month year old cousin and she just looked at me like I was crazy. I really hate feeling like this, but I don't know what I did to deserve it. I mean I'm pathetic. I sit in my room, make a wish at 11:11 every night and make a wish on an eyelash, make a wish on my necklace when the latch is in the front and none of my wishes ever come true. I don't know what I did to deserve to feel like this. I didn't think I was this bad of a person. 

I'm coming over my cousins on Friday again and he's supposed to come over and watch Saw 3 with us, but I don't even know now.

So Emile asked me on facebook if we were stil on for next week, even though we made plans to hang out over spring break back in January and I totally forgot. Weird man.
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